有心戒赌，无力回天：一个赌徒的烦恼

　　我已经27了，现在的我有轻微的赌博问题。在我17-25岁之间，我是一个百分之百的酒鬼，但在药物（类似双硫仑的东西）及意志力的帮助下，我运用各种方式设法从中脱离出来，这样子过了两年。虽然我偶尔还会复发，但是用药可以帮助我在几天的时间里完全恢复过来。

　　反正，赌博（体育博彩）是我在4年前中学的时候上瘾的。在1或2个月的时间里，我就已经失去了1000-1500英镑（也许2000美元）。4年的时间，我曾经用自我排斥的方法远离博彩网站。 在6星期前，我又因为简单无聊的生活而开始赌博，我有一个良好的技巧，在6个星期中获得600美元。但在过去的3天里，我几乎失去了所有的钱（也许550美元）。所以我现在又开始进行自我排斥的方法。不像酒，我还没有到赌博成瘾而到达慢性或急性的阶段，但我知道，如果我继续，我可能会需要几个月、一年或两年的时间来戒赌。

　　在最后一个周末，我失去了500美元（我住在印度，这是我工资的50％）或者更多，在过去6周我没有任何损失，不曾失去一个卢比。而在两天里失去23000或500美元，使我感到愤怒和沮丧，我觉得有必要“赢回来”。但我还是希望自己不要再回去。我是在可怕的酒精中失去了我梦想中的女孩，工作，金钱，自信和平和的心态。现在，我失去的大部分东西都已回来（除了妻子或者女孩），但我知道，赌博不比酒好（甚至更糟）。此外，对于我来说，嗜酒还可以通过药物来控制。我知道，现在并没有治疗赌博方面的药物。所以，我真的希望能够在自己赌博完全上瘾并且演化为一个严重的问题之前停止赌博。

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　　I am 27, I have a slight gambling problem right now, I was a heavy alcoholic from age 17-25, but with the help of medication （something like disulfiram） & will-power, I managed to somehow get out of it since 2 years. Though I have occasional short relapses, the medication helps me to get out completely again in few days.

　　Anyways, gambling （sports betting） was my secondary addiction & 4 years ago, I must have lost 1000-1500 UK pounds （maybe 2000 US $） in a matter of 1 or 2 months. I used the self-exclusion option 4 yrs ago & havent touch a betting website in 4 years. 6 weeks ago, I started gambling again, simply out of boredom & & I had a good run, making 600 $ in 6 weeks. But in the last 3 days, I lost nearly all of it （maybe 550 USD）。 So I now have self-excluded myself again. Unlike alcohol, I am not yet in the chronic or hardcore stages of gambling addiction yet, but I know if I continue, I probably will in a few months or maybe a year or 2.

　　This last weekend I lost above 500 USD （ I live in India, so this is like 50% of my salary） & eventhough overall, I have not made any losses in the last 6 weeks, losing Rs. 23000 or above 500 USD in 2 days is making very sad, angry & depressed & I have the need to 'win it back'. But I hope & think I will not return to it. I was a terrible hopeless alcoholic & lost my dream girl, job, money, self-confidence, peace of mind, etc. bcoz of it. I have recovered most of it （except a wife/ girl）， but I know gambling is as bad （maybe even worse） than alcohol. Also, whereas there is a medicine for alcohol for me （it does work!）， I know there is no medicine for gambling. So I really hope I can stop now before it becomes a too serious issue & I become completely addicted.